Jul 11 2009
Hallelujah, I’m afraid. Hallelujah, terrified.
So it’s official: I have been admitted to SIT Graduate Institute in Brattleboro, Vermont. I found out the day before yesterday. Numbness from shock has become worry and then excitement and then anxiety about all I have to do before I go and then panic that I’m insane to be doing this and then happiness that I am and then… From morning to night I think, Will I be able to rent my house in time? How will I manage to pack everything into storage? What should I bring? Will I find a nice place to live in Brattleboro? Will I have time to see my friends before I go? Should I drive across the country, or fly? How will I get Stella and luggage and everything to and from the airport? Where do I get doggie drugs for flights? Can I have some? Will I be able to succeed academically with the very intense workload? Why am I doing this? Will I be able to stay sane or will I tank midway?
Today I had breakfast with Adi & Michael. We looked on a map of New England to see where I’ll be, where her mother is, where their friends are. —I wonder if I’m in the snow belt up there, I mused. Adi pointed to the map. —See those little drawings of guys on skis? I did. They surround the campus.
Anna & Adi say I should take snow shoes. This will be … different.
CONGRATULATIONS!! i’m so happy to hear the news!! so i guess i need to book another flight to see you sometime… i suppose you will be gone by the time i get back.
oh. yes, yes, yes, yes and yes. you will figure everything out. it will all fall into place… somehow
i’m really excited for you!!
lots of hot sticky kisses from labuanbajo, flores ~
jill
Congrats.
Don’t worry.
You’ll be fine. I mean, you went to Nepal, you’ll be fine in Vermont.
Hi, Jill. Great to hear you’re still alive and sweaty. Yes, you absolutely must come visit. Oleg: I appreciate your words of reassurance more than you realize, though I’m practically inconsolable at the moment at the prospect of leaving my current life and my friends.